I Quit Mid-Year. And I Think I’ll Be A Better Teacher For It
So, I am never going to win any awards for being the most consistent blogger ever but I’ve always loved the opportunity to share ideas that blogging has given me. It’s always been a place for me to talk about the positive, fun things that we did as a class. So, writing this post about why I decided to quit mid-year has been really hard. I wrote a long, very detailed post about why and then decided that was to whiny. I wrote a short little witty piece and then decided that came off as too snarky. In the end, I decided that this should’t be so much about the why-I-quit, it should be about what this year has taught me and why I’ll be a better teacher for it.
I switched districts this year. Turns out it was a mistake.No,scratch that. It was a LEARNING EXPERIENCE. That what we tell our students when something doesn’t work the way they thought it would, right? The year started off kind of rocky but I had just switched districts so I thought that was normal. Fast forward a couple of weeks and add some para professional issues, administration issues, even fewer resources than I had at the other district, confusing and unrealistic expectations for self-contained classroom and other issues in the classroom and you get a burnt out teacher. I’d never felt this way before. Annoyed at some aspect of my job? Yes, plenty of times. Frustrated? Yup, sure. But, here’s the thing, as much as I might have been annoyed at something I still loved the job and the kids and the people that I worked with at my previous school. So I spent Thanksgiving break and Christmas break thinking things over and working toward giving myself permission to not finish the year. I wrestled with it for several weeks and when I finally made the decision and turned my resignation letter in I felt this huge wave of relief.
Here are a couple of my big take aways:
I should trust my gut more! I saw the signs early on but I convinced myself it would be fine.
Ask the hard questions early on! Next time I interview for a job I’ll make sure to ask all the hard question upfront and be prepared to pass on a job if I don’t like the answers.
I know what I am doing! I’ve got my students and their families best interests at heart so I’m going to make sure that I find a team that sees and supports that.
I will let the little things go! I let the little problems distract me too much at my previous school and I didn’t really appreciate the good thing I had. That won’t happen again.
Teaching is a hard job in the best of situations. So when the deck is stacked against you and you don’t have the resources or the support you need, you have to give yourself permission to walk away from a situation you can’t win. It doesn’t mean your done forever, it just means you respect myself to much to stay in a toxic environment.
I’m going to be subbing for my old district the rest of the year but I’m still planning on blogging and sharing some cool ideas with you guys and I’ll keep you updated on finding a happier school to call home.